Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing.
A/N: Extra long chapter today! I couldn't stop writing this one and then I felt like cutting it in half wouldn't achieve much so I posted the whole thing at once. Also... please don't kill me! Its going to be a happy ending I swear!
(I can't get away from angst I suppose... and the cliffy-ish ending was also unintentional. Sorry!)
And errhhmm... forgive any mistakes, I only proofread it once... and Heero's a little OOC as he usually is in this fic... for some reason...
Posted on 4th December 2007
“Wufei. I need your help.” Duo said quickly as soon as Wufei opened the door. He was currently dressed in a robe and pajamas and had the biggest case of bed-hair this side of the continent. “You’re still sleeping?!” He gaped as he looked at the time. It was noon.
“We had a late night! And what are you doing here?” Wufei asked barring the doorway with himself.
“Oh you lucky dog! Didya get some? Not going to invite me in? Nevermind I’ll make myself at home.” Duo shot sentence after sentence and pushed the door open. With purpose he put his bag down on the dining table and started to hook up his laptop.
“Oh yes, please, come in. My home is your home.” Wufei said to the empty hallway outside sarcastically as he slammed the door and went to Duo’s side. “What are you doing?”
“I need to hack into the police database.” Duo said and Wufei stumbled, nearly falling in the process.
“Wh-what?” He asked as he shook his head.
“Police mainframe. I need some information.” Duo explained. “Long story, but I want to see if there’s any information on a guy named Adam Shaw. His address would make my day.”
“Meiran, could you make us some tea? I think he’ll be here a while.” Wufei called and Duo heard footsteps go into the kitchen.
“Me-me? Could I get coffee instead? Thanks babe!” Duo called out and Meiran stuck her head out of the kitchen.
“No problem Duo. Black or…?”
“Black please!” She nodded and went in. Duo turned to look at Wufei. “She looks positively glowing my man! Didn’t know you had it in you!” Duo teased and Wufei blushed red. He pulled a chair up to Duo and chose to ignore the comment.
“Why couldn’t you look at the phonebook? Less dangerous… more logical. Although we both know how you despise logic.”
Duo shot him a look and Wufei grinned. “I did, if you must know. He’s unlisted. I did however, find Derouche’s number. Wanna crank call him tonight?” He asked wiggling his eyebrows suggestively as he handed him a piece of paper with James’ number on it.
Wufei slapped his forehead tiredly. “This is your last hope? If we get caught we could serve jail time.”
“That’s why I came here Wu-bear. I know how good you are with covering up your tracks. I’ve seen you watch porn on the company computers and no one’s caught you yet!” He said loudly and heard Meiran huff in the kitchen.
“That’s not true! I work! I’ve never… Maxwell!” Duo sniggered enjoying annoying him way too much.
“Hey? Wanna head to the gym after this? We haven’t worked out in a while and you’re looking chubby.” He said before grinning and pulling up the police website login page.
“Yeah sure, let’s go to the gym after we’re done hacking into a government database. No big deal. It’s all normal, normal things that normal people do.” Wufei said exasperated. “Why couldn’t you find a boyfriend who was normal? And who didn’t have stalkers running after him?”
“Coz Heero’s special.” He said distractedly and then pulled Wufei’s face into the laptop screen by his hair. “Work your magic.”
Just as Wufei pulled the laptop over to him Meiran came with a tray full of hot tea and coffee with cookies. “Are you two doing something illegal?” She asked as she put the tray down on the table. When she received two blank looks in response to her question she had her answer. “Don’t tell me anything about it. When you guys get arrested I’ll plead ignorance.” She said as she yawned. “Don’t wake me up unless you two are either getting murdered or jailed. Anything less than that and I’ll kill you.” And she headed back to the bedroom, closing the door behind her.
“Wu-man, I have a sneaking suspicion that she may be the one doing you.” Duo commented as Wufei blushed red and smacked him hard on the back of his head. Then with a huff he started working on hacking in.
As the minutes passed Duo’s boredom got the better of him. He started making a sculpture out of the forks and spoons and knives placed on the dining table. After that fell apart spectacularly showering the entire place in silverware, he moved onto making animals out of napkins. He then decided to rearrange Wufei’s books in his study by interest value judged according to Duo. He also then meticulously placed post-its with comments on them regarding the synopsis on the back of some of the more used books.
It was hard work… but it took up time. “You just want information right?” Wufei asked after about an hour of sifting through codes. Duo dropped the book in his hand and skipped over to him, who had yet to see the mess the house was in.
“Can you make a wanted alert for James Derouche?” Duo asked very seriously. Wufei ignored him. “Dude he’s made my life hell! Let’s give him one back.”
“Okay, you have ten minutes to do any searches before the virus I put in is destroyed by the security system and then it’ll come for us.” He said as he handed the computer to Duo. As soon as he handed the computer back to Duo his eyes fell on the mess on the dining table and he let out a silent scream. Duo ignored him.
“Adam Shaw… Adam Shaw… There’s too many Adam Shaws.” Duo said exasperated. “I can’t go through all of them in ten minutes.”
Wufei went to his study, Duo heard him exclaim and kick something in there, and got a disk. He downloaded all the Shaw files into that disk and then logged out of the computer. “Now you can go through them at your leisure.”
Duo looked at the disk in his hands with awe. “Wufei… if you weren’t married and/or straight I’d have wild monkey sex with you right now.” He watched Wufei’s face turn red so fast he was sure the guy must have some massive internal bleeding somewhere. “You make the master of hackers look insignificant and I find that very very attractive.” Duo continued in a fake breathy voice as he continued to stare into Wufei’s eyes. A rather large, prominent vein made an appearance on his forehead and Duo watched it curiously as it twitched. “You hear that Meiran?! I’m gonna make wild monkey love to your husband!”
“Go right ahead. Maybe that’ll loosen him up a bit!” Came the prompt reply and Wufei’s left eye twitched violently.
Duo felt laughter bubble inside him. He tried to hold it down but eventually he felt the corners of his lips twitching and his jaw quivering with the need to laugh and it burst out of him. He laughed so hard that he felt his stomach tying in knots and his breath coming in short bursts. He barely heard Wufei yelling ‘Get out’ as he was bodily thrown out of the apartment, his laptop sailing after him that he just barely managed to rescue… all without stopping laughing. By the time he got home, he was hiccupping.
Lounging on his bed at home Duo decided to call Heero. “Hey He-man!” He said as the phone was picked up. He heard Heero chuckle lightly before he answered.
“Duo, how are you?”
“I’m okay. I was wondering if you want to meet at the park today? It’s been a while since we went there…”
“Sure. Aiko’s been wanting to go out too. I’ll be there around five okay?”
“Great! See you then love.” He said as he hung up. His eyes fell on the disk sitting innocently on the desk across from him. He hadn’t started looking through it yet.
He shrugged as he fell back into bed. What’s a couple more hours going to do? He’ll look them over when he comes back from the park.
“Heero!” He called when he saw the familiar figure sitting in the grass in front of a jumping Aiko. He was bundled up because of the cold. The weather network had forecasted snow and ice later that evening. He himself was wearing a bulky jacket with gloves and a warm cap pulled over his hair and ears. His braid was sticking out the back awkwardly but he hated stuffing it down his jacket.
Heero got up as he heard Duo’s voice and gave him a brilliant smile. Duo ran over to him and jumped on him, hugging him tightly and kind of glad he had excellent balance.
“Oh Heero I missed you so much!” He said as he placed a big, wet, sloppy kiss on Heero’s lips but instead of being grossed out he laughed.
“I missed you too Duo.” He managed to say before Duo kissed him again, longer and deeper this time. “Shouldn’t you be worried someone might be taking pictures?” He said as they broke for air.
“Nah… it’s not like they can follow us…” He stopped as he spotted a man across the park with a camera in his hand. He was wearing a dark jacket and blue jeans looking like a normal passerby. He was taking pictures even as Duo glared at him. “… twenty four hours… Heero, I’ll be right back.” He said as he let go of him and dashed towards the man like mad.
The guy seemed to have realized he was caught and he turned tail and ran. Duo followed him out of the park and into the maze of alleys behind the buildings. He barely managed to keep the guy in sight as he zoomed erratically from one alley to another.
“Hey! Stop!” He called but he knew how stupid it would be if the guy actually did stop. “Stop!” He screamed anyway.
Imagine his surprise when he did stop. He stopped right across a small road from him. Duo walked up to him with purpose. “Now listen you…” He didn’t have a chance to finish his sentence as the guy placed a gloved hand on Duo’s chest and pushed him back lightly, the smile on his face disconcerting. “What the…?”
The guy pushed him a few steps further back and then stopped to admire his handiwork. Meanwhile Duo was dumbstruck as he recognized the dark hair, the green eyes... “Adam…?”
I’ve seen him before. I’ve seen him before. Where have I seen him before?
“Goodbye Mr. Maxwell.” He said, his voice deep, as he turned and ran and Duo stared after him wondering what was going on.
Next thing he knew he was staring at the oncoming headlights of a truck, the scream of its horns ripping through the evening air. He felt chilling white fear take hold of his body as he froze. His eyes widened as he watched the truck come closer and closer, every millisecond feeling like an eternity, the blaring horn breaking his ear drums and shattering any sense of logic or common sense he had.
I’m going to die. I’m going to die. I’m going to die.
He heard someone yell and grab the front of his jacket and pull so hard he stumbled into them. His right hand got clipped by the truck, the glove pulled right off. The truck screeched to a halt several feet away as the driver cursed at them but Duo didn’t hear any of that.
Someone was holding him, telling him he was an idiot and that everything would be okay at the same time. Someone was holding his injured hand up and out of the way so that he won’t hurt it further. And someone was hugging him tightly to a warm chest.
“Shh… Duo… What happened? Are you okay? ” Duo was trembling and that was enough answer for the guy. A crowd started gathering at the place and someone picked up his discarded glove and handed it to him.
“Should we call the police or an ambulance?” Someone asked.
“No I’ll take it from here. Duo’s a friend.” The man holding him said, his chest vibrating with the words. “Duo…” His chin was grasped by warm fingers and pulled up so he could see the face of the man. “Talk to me, say something.”
“Trowa…?” Didn’t Trowa hate him? Didn’t he tell him he’d kill him the next time he saw him?
“I think you might be in shock.” He said looking over his pale complexion, his wide blank eyes and shallow rapid breathing. “I’m taking you to the hospital. We need to get your hand looked at too.”
At the mention of his hand, Duo felt it twinge with pain and he looked at it to see a mess of blood and broken fingers.
That could have been me… the whole me… I could have been killed…
“Come on.” He started nudging Duo towards a car.
“Heero… park...” Was all Duo could say but Trowa understood and pulled out his cell phone.
“Quatre. Heero’s at the park. Duo’s had an accident I’m taking him to the hospital. No he’s fine, he’s just in shock. Could you…? Yes. Okay great, I’ll call you later. Bye baby.” Putting the cell away he looked at the crowd gathered. “Did any of you see the face of the man that did this?”
The people shook their heads and Trowa sighed. He opened the car door and put Duo in, buckling his seat belt for him. Duo stared at his mangled right hand.
I could have ended up like that… my hand… He imagined the whole thing again, this time the truck did hit him and he saw his broken remains on the asphalt. Hamburger meat… turned into hamburger meat…
“Duo! Snap out of it.” Trowa said as he watched Duo mumble stuff to himself.
“Hamburgers.” He said and Trowa believed that the young man had finally lost his mind.
“We’ll get you hamburgers after you get your hand looked at.” He said as he drove. But Duo wasn’t listening.
Is this how Heero felt? Only much much worse because he actually got hit? Did he feel like he had died only to wake up the next morning unable to see?
Duo felt himself get drowsy and he fought to keep his eyes open. Trowa noticed and grabbed his shoulder to shake him out of it. “Hey Duo? Want to play with the radio?” He suggested trying to get him distracted and make him stay awake. He’d heard somewhere that it was not good for someone with shock to go to sleep in that state. Somehow Trowa managed to keep him somewhat preoccupied till they pulled into the hospital emergency.
Trowa sighed as he looked at the sleeping Duo. The hospital room consisted just one bed that Duo was sleeping on and a couple of not very comfortable chairs randomly placed. Trowa was seated in one of those chairs keeping an eye on his best friend’s accident prone boyfriend. He’d had quite a fright when he had seen Duo standing in the middle of the road staring at the oncoming truck. He’d been so sure he wouldn’t make it in time…
He put his head in his hands. He was so sure that Heero would lose Duo, and then he’d go into depression again…
He heard the door open softly and saw Quatre and Heero enter.
“How is he feeling?” Quatre whispered when he saw Duo asleep.
“The doctor said his hand will take a while to heal. He broke three of his fingers as well as has a massive gash in his palm. Technically he could go home now but the doctor wanted to monitor his vitals since he seemed to be in shock.” Trowa explained, his voice low.
“Where is he?” Heero asked holding out his hand. Quatre took it and led him to Duo where he made him sit down on a nearby chair. He then placed Heero’s hand on Duo’s uninjured one.
“Here’s Duo.” He said gently.
Heero’s hand tightened around Duo’s immediately and he pulled himself closer to his bed. He caressed his hand gently realizing that he came really close to losing him. “What happened?”
“I saw a man push Duo onto the road and then run away. For some reason Duo didn’t get off the road and then he froze when the truck came. I managed to pull him out of the way but his hand hit the truck.” Trowa explained.
Heero nodded. It sounded so much like what had happened four years ago… “Was it Adam?”
Trowa looked up sharply at his name. “No… at least I don’t know… I didn’t see his face.”
Heero grunted but he was frowning. His hand continued caressing Duo’s. “Is he really going to be okay?”
“Doctor said he will be fine.” Trowa said to him gently. “If Duo sleeps fine tonight he’ll be allowed to leave tomorrow morning.”
“Thank you Trowa.” Heero said sincerely. “For saving him… I know how you don’t like him…”
Trowa sighed. “I don’t hate him enough to want him get run over by a truck. I was just angry at him for hurting you.”
Heero smiled. “I like him a lot. And he likes me too… I really would like you two to get along. I don’t want to have to lose one for the other because you’re both important to me.”
Trowa nodded. “Sorry for that whole incident. I worry because I saw how small, insignificant problems with Adam escalated to… well… and I don’t want to ever wonder if I should have stepped in earlier again.”
“Adam was… different… Duo’s nothing like him…”
“I’m sorry. I’ll apologize to Duo once he wakes up too. But I’ll be apologizing for breaking his nose, not for standing up for you.” He clarified and Quatre smiled at him.
“I think Duo would be fine with that.” He said watching Heero. He didn’t smile, his hand lingered on Duo’s.
“How deeply does he sleep? Shock or no shock we’ve been talking normally for ages and he’s yet to stir.” Trowa said gesturing with his hand towards the sleeping man.
“He’s a heavy sleeper. Even Aiko jumping on the bed in the morning didn’t wake him up.” Heero said with a small smile and Trowa froze.
“He spent the night at your place?” He said his voice deepening. Heero stilled having realized what he had just told but then he gave a mental shrug. “In your bed?”
“Yeah he did… so?” He shrugged physically this time.
Trowa put his head in his hands. “I give up.” He said exhausted.
“Stop picking at it.” Trowa warned as Duo pulled at the plaster and bandages covering his hand. They were heading to Heero’s house after picking Duo up from the hospital the next morning. The doctor had told them that Duo’s vitals were perfectly fine and he was good to go.
“It itches!” He whined as he tried to scratch through the plaster. Quatre and Heero were sitting in the back seat talking amongst themselves as Duo had taken the passenger seat. He felt fine although he felt a small amount of nervousness everytime a truck passed them on the road.
“You have to be the unluckiest man I know. Within a week you’ve had your nose broken and your hand smashed to bits. How do you do it?”
“I don’t know. It’s a talent. Can we get burgers and fries? You promised me those yesterday. I want a double bacon cheeseburger.” He said as he turned around to address Heero. “Wanna share a milkshake with me Heero?”
Breaking off his conversation with Quatre Heero answered him. “Milkshake? I want strawberry.”
“And you Kitty Quat? Cyclops’ buying so we can go nuts.” He said to him with a grin. Quatre flashed him a big smile and nodded.
“I’ll decide when we get there.”
Sighing Trowa took the next exit to the nearest Fast food joint.
“I don’t know what I was thinking when I decided this was a good idea.” Duo complained as he stared at the mess of his burger. It had fallen apart. He couldn’t use both his hands to hold the burger and one hand didn’t offer enough stability for him to actually bite it. Not to mention he was trying to eat it using his left hand, his non-dominant side. Hungry and frustrated at everyone else enjoying their meal he shoved a couple of fries in his mouth. He was also trying to maintain some of his dignity as other people in the restaurant looked at him.
“Don’t worry Duo. No one’s accusing you of thinking.” Trowa said with a completely straight face as Quatre started laughing and Heero chuckled.
“Hardy har har one-eyed cyclops.” He retorted bitterly.
“Duo… all Cyclops are one-eyed.” Heero corrected. “So saying one-eyed Cyclops is repeating yourself.”
Duo growled and started picking up pieces of his burger. Not even having junk food was cheering him up today. Life’s just been that annoying.
“Okay, enough jokes.” Trowa cut in and everyone turned to look at him. He turned to Duo. “Who pushed you on the road and why didn’t you get off? As far as I saw you had enough time to step onto the curb again.”
Duo fell silent and put his half eaten burger down. “I froze.” He said and made cutting motions with his left hand to tell them to drop it. He didn’t want to tell them Adam was behind it in front of Heero.
Quatre’s eyes widened and he mouthed ‘Adam?’ to Duo who nodded.
Trowa mouthed ‘what?’ to Duo and he shrugged and mouthed back ‘later’.
“If you don’t want me here just tell me and I’ll go. Don’t take advantage of my handicap.” Heero said looking annoyed and Duo sweated at having been caught.
“Ehrrmm…” He said intelligently and looked to Trowa and Quatre for help.
“It’s getting late, let’s go.” Trowa said as he got up. Duo saw Heero frown darkly but he got up with them anyway. “I’ll drop Heero off first and then we’ll drop you Duo, is that all right?”
“Ye-“ Duo started to agree but was interrupted by Heero.
“He’s staying with me.” He said decisively and even Trowa found himself at a loss to argue.
“Let’s go.” He said as he threw his arm over Quatre’s shoulders and pulled him close, leading him out. Duo stood next to Heero awkwardly and then he placed a hand on his shoulder. Heero tensed for a moment but then allowed him to lead him out of the restaurant and to Trowa’s car.
As soon as Trowa pulled out of the driveway the door slammed closed and he found himself face to face with Heero. Duo knew that if Heero could see then he would be getting glared at like there was no tomorrow. Currently he was just glad he was wearing shades.
“Hey… Heero…” Duo said shuffling in the corner. He was feeling uncomfortable and his hand was giving slight twinges of pain when he kept it hanging too long.
“What happened there? Why wouldn’t you tell me and tell everyone else?” He said looking hurt and frustrated.
Duo shuffled on his feet. “Heero… I…”
“We’ve barely gotten into a relationship and you’re already hiding things from me?” his lips were thin and he was subtly grinding his jaw. Duo felt horrible but he had gotten himself buried so deep he had no idea what to do anymore.
“I can’t tell you Heero…” He said softly hoping he wouldn’t get mad.
“But they know. I don’t know and they know.” He hissed.
Duo swallowed loudly. “You have your secrets too.”
“Ones that no one know. You on the other hand… does Wufei know too? Whatever it is that you’re hiding?” He moved his hand through the air in a cutting motion. “Maybe it was in the news, so everyone knows but me? Is that it?”
“Heero… don’t…” Were they having a fight? Their first fight?
“Why is it that…” Duo saw him swallow thickly. “I just…”
He suddenly looked uncertain and Duo walked up to him and hugged him tightly. “I was so afraid that you’d die…” He said as he hugged Duo back fiercely. “And then no one would tell me what happened…”
“It was Adam.” Duo said and Heero seemed to stop breathing for a few moments. “He knew my name and he pushed me in front of that truck. Is that what happened to you too Heero?”
Heero pulled away from him and then shook his head. “He didn’t push me in front of the truck.”
“Then… what happened?” He couldn’t have been drunk or anything like that… how would he end up in front of the truck then?
“It’s more complicated than that.” He said as he turned to go into the hallway towards the bedroom.
“You don’t have to tell me, it’s okay.” Duo said as he followed Heero. He mentally smacked himself for saying that. He wanted to know damnit!
Heero shook his head but continued walking. Duo noticed how Heero’s each step was the same stride as the last one, identical… he also watched how Heero reached for the doorknob to his room the exact moment, no guesswork.
He counted his footsteps… it was hard for Duo to imagine. To know the number of steps to each spot in the house from every other spot… it made his head spin…
And it made him appreciate the kind of life Heero was forced to live. To constantly count steps, to check all the windows and doors manually every night because he couldn’t just visually assure they were locked… the fear that there might be someone right in front of him and he wouldn’t see them…
Maybe Duo was more afraid for Heero than Heero was for himself?
“Why do you live alone, Heero? I don’t think Trowa would mind moving in with you.” Duo said randomly and he saw Heero frown slightly.
“He did live with me. Then he met Quatre and moved out. He offered to move in again and he stayed with me for about two months then I told him to move back in with Quatre. I didn’t want to be a burden.” He explained.
“Where are your parents?”
“They died when I was thirteen. This house belongs to them… that’s the only reason I live here. I couldn’t afford it otherwise.” Duo grunted. “Don’t look, I have to change.” He said as he pulled out a pair of soft cotton pajamas.
“You’re not going to change in the washroom?” Duo asked surprised. Was he going to trust him not to look?
“It’s cold in there… could you wait in the hallway for a moment?” He asked hugging the pajamas to his chest.
“I thought it was okay if I didn’t look.” Duo said with a smirk. Suddenly he was feeling playful again. He didn’t like fighting with Heero, he liked annoying him more.
“I know you’ll look.”
Duo laughed and then walked to the door. But instead of stepping out he opened it and closed it again. Then very softly he stepped away from the door and stayed really quiet.
He watched Heero as he stood in the centre of the room uncertainly. He then walked to the door and touched it lightly realizing it was closed. Then he hovered some more.
“I know you’re in here Duo.” He said but Duo could detect a note of uncertainty in his voice and decided to play on that. He grew so quiet he stilled his breathing even. He saw him shift his balance from one foot to another confused. “Are you in here?” He asked again and reached out randomly but he was too far from Duo to actually touch him. He bit his lower lip and then his hands grasped the hem of his shirt lifting it over his head.
Duo sucked in a quiet breath as Heero’s flat, smooth stomach and dark nipples were exposed to him. He could see that Heero could sense him there because of the way the tiny hairs on his arms stood up on end and small goosebumps appeared everywhere Duo’s eyes fell. His hands grasped the waistband of his jeans but he stopped. “Please Duo…”
He couldn’t ignore that and Duo walked to the door, opened it, stepped out and closed it behind him. When he came back in five minutes later Heero was dressed, his shades gone, and putting his clothes away. Duo sat down gingerly on the bed watching his practiced movements. He followed him with his eyes, the way the thin cotton pajamas moved against the outline of his legs and the way the shirt formed to the outline of his waist when he bent down to put his shoes to the side.
“Will you tell me what happened the night of your accident?” Duo asked deciding not to think too hard about it. If Heero didn’t want to then he’ll refuse. Again. Simple as that.
“Adam… how long has he been in contact with you?” He asked instead and Duo frowned at his obvious evasion.
“Remember the guy who was trying to blackmail me and was taking pictures? It was Adam, I caught him with a camera at the park yesterday.” He touched his broken hand gingerly remembering the truck. “He pushed me in front of an oncoming truck.”
Heero grunted and sat down next to Duo. “Are you feeling okay?”
“I’m fine. My hand hurts a bit but otherwise I’m okay.” He nodded even though Heero couldn’t see. “I just don’t know how he knows me… how he is able to send those pictures to everyone in my office…how he knows so much… I just don’t know.” Duo frowned thinking hard but it didn’t make sense.
“I put out some clothes for you to change into…” Heero said to him placing a hand on his arm. Duo nodded and got up changing into the clothes Heero had left for him right in front of him. What was the point? It’s not like he could see.
“I met Adam outside a bar.” Heero said and Duo stilled for a moment listening. “Trowa, Quatre and I… we were sixteen and too young to go into the bar. Adam was outside and he offered to help us get in. He was eighteen so he could go in.”
Duo quickly finished changing and switched the lights off. He sat down on the bed next to Heero and listened.
“He was cute…” Heero shrugged. “He paid extra attention to me. By the time the night ended we had exchanged phone numbers.” He smiled slightly. “It wasn’t long before we started going out. Trowa didn’t like him much, said that something about Adam made him worry. But I didn’t listen. I liked him a lot.” Heero started pulling at the hem of his shirt as he continued talking. “Everything was going well but then one day Adam told me he was jealous of Trowa because we hung out a lot. I told him we were just friends but I don’t think he believed me.” Heero ran his fingers through his hair, the light from the street giving his dark hair a bluish glow. “He told me not to see Trowa again… and I understood that. I mean Trowa and I were really close so I can see how that would make him worry…”
He leaned back against the headboard of the bed and put his hands on stomach as he continued. “Trowa got angry at Adam for separating us. He came here one day and yelled at Adam about being jealous and insecure. It escalated to insults and threats.”
So that’s what that happened between Trowa and Adam? Duo lied down next to Heero and ran his fingers through his short hair.
“When Trowa left… that was the first time Adam hit me.” Duo’s hand stilled in Heero’s hair and he felt his blood boil. Adam hit him? He took several calming breaths trying not to let Heero know he was getting agitated.
“Why didn’t you break it off with him?” Duo asked softly and he saw Heero tense.
“I loved him. I tried but I couldn’t. I love him too much.” Duo froze at that. From Heero’s expression it didn’t seem as though he had noticed the lack of past tense in the last sentence. Did he still… after all this time love that bastard? He was too afraid to confirm what he thought so he kept quiet letting Heero continue. “Adam moved in with me. He watched me at all times… but it wasn’t so bad actually… it sounds worse when I say it like that.” Duo fidgeted. Suddenly he didn’t want to know. Heero was still in love with him… and he felt his heart break somewhat at that.
“The night of the accident… he had a couple of his friends come and we all went to a club just at the edge of the city. I guess he got drunk and he tried to force me into… well… I refused and then his friends got aggressive…”
“Aggressive?” Duo asked, his eyes narrowing. “Did they try to rape you?”
Heero was silent for a moment and then he sat up. “Rape is too strong a word…”
Duo sat up quickly as well getting angry. “Heero. Did they, or did they not force themselves on you when you refused?”
“It wasn’t like that!” Heero exclaimed looking frustrated. “Adam was there! He wouldn’t…”
“Did Adam stop them?”
“He… he would have! I didn’t give him a chance.” Heero said looking close to tears. “Before he could do anything I ran and I got hit!”
“Heero! Why can’t you see that Adam was not going to save you!?” Duo hissed. “If he wanted to stop them it wouldn’t have gotten to the point where you would panic and run!”
“And how would you know what Adam would do? You don’t even know him!” He said close to shouting.
“How can you take his side after he tried to KILL ME!” Duo yelled the last two words and Heero flinched.
“Maybe he wants me back.” Heero said in a monotone voice but Duo could detect a hint of hope in that sentence that made his heart break to pieces.
“You’ll take him over me?” Duo looked away. “I love you and you’ll take him over me?” Heero stayed quiet and Duo had had enough. He got off the bed and changed back into his own clothes. “I’m leaving.”
“That’s why I didn’t want to tell you!” Heero yelled tears streaming down his face. “I NEVER told anyone!”
Duo stopped and looked at Heero who looked so small sitting in that huge bed, his face wet with tears that he was trying to dry using his sleeve. Duo couldn’t stop himself as he reached for Heero with his left hand holding his chin up and he kissed him hard pushing him back onto the bed. Duo pushed his tongue into Heero’s mouth tasting his tears and rested his entire weight on the smaller boy, feeling his entire body against his own. He shifted to put his hurt hand out of the way, ignoring the way his arm twisted uncomfortably trying to keep weight off. He let go of Heero’s mouth and started licking and sucking on Heero’s neck tasting the skin there, finding it hard to stop. Heero’s hands were in his hair, not stopping him, not encouraging him.
“I love you so much and you’ll take him over me?” He asked again against the skin of Heero’s neck and he got no answer, just rapid shallow breaths and a swallowed moan. With his good hand he pushed Heero’s shirt up, his hand on his chest feeling the skin there, the way his stomach jumped when his fingers came in contact with it. He pinched Heero’s nipples, caressing them until they were hard nubs. He pulled Heero’s shirt over his head threw it to the side not caring where it went. He descended on him licking, kissing and sucking him everywhere. His hand found its way between Heero’s legs and squeezed the hardness he found there making him moan loudly. Again, Heero didn’t stop him.
Heero let go of Duo’s hair in favour of fisting the bed sheets. His face was flushed and he was panting. Duo pushed open Heero’s legs and then sat in between them, licking him through the thin cotton of his pajamas. Heero threw his head back at the sensations but didn’t stop him.
Duo then reached for the waistband of his pajamas intending to pull them down when Heero’s hand finally stopped him. He gripped Duo’s hand tightly refusing to let it move. He sat up and placed his hand on Duo's chest feeling him as it slid down to his stomach and then grasped him between his legs. He chuckled briefly at the hardness he found.
“If I was to refuse you now… and if you didn’t stop… it would be my fault, not yours.” Heero said to him and Duo’s eyes widened. “I let it get too far. I didn't stop you soon enough. My fault.”
“I’m not like Adam. If you say no, then I stop.” He said determined. “I won’t rape you. Ever.” He breathed in deeply trying to calm his raging hormones. “Bye Heero.” He said as he turned and left.
As soon as Heero heard the front door open and close he felt tears streaming down his cheeks. He reached for the cell phone sitting on his side table and called Trowa.
“Heero?” Trowa picked up.
“I made Duo leave me. Duo left me.” He said as he hiccupped. “Duo left me.”
“I’m coming there right now, okay Heero? I’ll be right there.” He said as he cut the call. Heero pulled his knees to his chest and cried silently.
Outside Duo leaned against a lamp post at the main intersection near Heero’s house. “He doesn’t love me.” He whispered to himself and then headed to the subway station.
A/N: Uhh... please don't kill me! (Ducks and covers)
I promise this is the darkest chapter! It'll only get lighter from here! This was the big revelation chapter thingy ...
I'll go now...
(shuffles away)