Words like this means flashback.
I want to take it all back. I wish I’ve never dragged him into this. I should have gone alone. Then, he would be in the safe house, with the others, instead of locked in this cell with me.
The mission didn’t seem too difficult. We had to get inside an OZ base near and stole plans on new Mobil Suits. Then, we’d to destroy it. Everything went well until we tried to leave the base… it seemed like there was a security system I didn’t spot. And when we left the base to get to our Gundams, we were surrounded by dozen of Mobile Suits and forced to surrender.
I should have been more careful. I should have done a better job with hacking their security system.
“Heero?”
Looking over, I look blankly at him, as he smiles a little.
“Stop feeling guilty,” he says. “It’s not your fault.”
“…”
“I should have been more careful myself. We wouldn’t be there.”
Then, he looks down and stays quiet. Typical Quatre. Never blaming someone else but himself when something goes wrong. That’s exactly what Duo would say if he were here.
Duo… he wanted to go with me on this mission, but I decided to bring Quatre instead. A good strategy was necessary to get in the base, and only Quatre could find a good one. But now, I regret it more and more. I know what happened wasn’t his fault, but I made a promise.
A few hours earlier
“The mission should take a few hours.”
“…”
“And we’ll be back safely.”
“I don’t doubt your strengths.”
“… Trowa, don’t worry about Quatre. I promise I’ll keep an eye on him.”
“Heero…”
“That’s what you want from me, right?”
“No. Even if I don’t ask you to, I know you will. But I want you both to come back safely. If you’re not back tomorrow at 6 in the morning, we’ll come to the base too.”
“Alright.”
And now, how will I keep that promise? Even if Trowa, Duo and Wufei come to our rescue, it can be too late. OZ soldiers can come to kill us at any moment. Quatre can be killed at any moment. I have to protect him. I know how important Quatre is to my silent friend. I’m the only one who knows how much he cares for him. I remember when I told him that the only way to have a good life was to follow his emotions. He followed my advice… and ended up falling in love.
“I used to think that feelings will get in the way of missions. For this reason, I threw away all human feelings and emotions…” he told me a while ago.
“But?”
He smiled slightly. He knew I knew something was up.
“But then, I met Quatre.” he continued “Kind, gentle. First time I saw him my heart soared. I hated this feeling and didn’t want to be around him too much… but after the incident with Catherine in the OZ base, it changed.”
“How?”
“I was thankful to be alive and afraid of death. And then…. possessiveness. I want to be with Quatre. I never knew I had these kinds of emotions…”
“To follow your emotions will never get you wrong, Trowa. That’s what I learned.”
Love can be confusing. I, myself, don’t know what it’s like to be in love, like he is with Quatre. But I do care. I care for Relena, she’s a hope for total peace and it’s part of my mission to protect her. I care for Duo. He can be very annoying sometimes, but he never let me down. And I’m thankful to have him by my side. I can’t read anyone’s feelings, but I did catch both of them looking at me… looking at me the same way Trowa is looking at Quatre.
“Heero, you should open your eyes a little more when Duo is around you.”
“What do you mean, Quatre?”
“You’ll see.”
Looking over at the blond pilot, I sigh softly. I don’t want to have regrets… But as I feel like there’s a fatal countdown, I’ve more and more regrets. Things I should have said and done. Maybe it’s not too late.
“Quatre…” He looked at me with curious eyes. “There’s something you have to know.”
“About what?”
“Trowa.”
He blinks and looks at me carefully. I’ve no idea if what I’ll say will change anything, but he has to know. Maybe if I tell him how important he is to Trowa…
“Quatre… you’re-”
But then, the door opens and there stand 3 OZ soldiers, weapons out. One of them walks in the cell and grabbed Quatre’s hair, causing him to wince.
“You are coming with us,” he said. “A few questions won’t hurt you, as long as you cooperate…”
“I won’t say anything!” Quatre says angrily, kicking the soldier in the ankle. In result, the soldier let go of his hair and but then punches him in the stomach.
“Little brat!” he says before grabbing his hair again and dragging him out of the cell, the other two starting to follow him.
“Wait!”
Turning around, the soldier, who’s holding Quatre, glares at me.
“What?”
“If you want to interrogate someone, then it should be me.” I say, letting no emotion showing up on my face. “You’ll loose your time with him.”
“Don’t worry, boy, your turn will come once we’re finished with him… which shouldn’t take too long,” he says before slamming the door. I hear them walking down the hall and I mentally slap my face.
I failed. A few hours passed after our capture, it’s probably still night time… and for what I can see, they’ve no intention to keep us alive for a while.
I just wish my turn would have been before Quatre’s. I can handle torture but I don’t know for Quatre.
It’s too late now.
Trowa, my friend, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t protect him.
Relena, I’m sorry, I wish I could still protect and help you. Duo, I’m sorry. I wish I could see you one last time…
Mission Failed. I’m sorry.